30 December 2007
Work publicised number two: What you are hearing now is arranged by me. Heh, everybody should know this tune very well eh?

Hm...7 months remaining...there is no time left.

Yeah, I don't laugh at most jokes, two reasons for that. One, I don't find it funny. Two, I don't understand. Usually it is always me laughing the last, laughing while everybody has stopped laughing...but I like it this way, if I were to choose, I'll rather be the odd one out. Which brings me to the thing I want to talk about. Many times, a someone will talk to me, maybe the person thinks it is funny or something worth mentioning, but I already knew, or understood, or don't find it funny, so I only nod my head. Then maybe that someone thought I didn't understand or didn't hear, and will repeat himself. And at that point, I then have to do a fake smile...haha...troublesome eh...anyway, to the person, I do understand, it's just that I don't find it funny. I do hear you even though I may not seem to respond.

29 December 2007
Man: Okay, so I went to this High School Musical something for thanksgiving cellgroup meeting. All is well except for the registration. Hm, was supposed to be classified into groups, but then, cool, halfway through I got forgotten! Nice..real nice...

Douglas: Went for a thanksgiving cellgroup meeting last night, was named High School Musical where people dress up in three different categories, namely, "Intellectual", "Sporty" and "Arty". Uh yeah, so was standing around with some of the cellgroup people, and the way they talked really made me think perhaps there is a "Nerdy", perhaps a last add-on. Yeah, so went to register, I went ahead, Charis asked me what do I want to be categorized in, I said "I don't know, nerdy?", then Eddison was behind me, and she said to him, "Eddison, I'm putting you under intellectual." Uh, then I was forgotten? Standing by the side waiting waiting. Haha, but it's good that it happened, got served by somebody else well...maybe it's because of her that my opinion changed...Well, maybe Charis is going to read this and then go, oh wait, I doubt she even reads this and only entered this site twice, sound, lililala lililala...yeah...lililala...

Vampyre: ...

24 December 2007
There probably would be many posts coming starting from yesterday...hm...let's talk about my latest attraction...Japanese dorama.

Find them very impressive, I've never watched overseas drama before, no, not that I've never watched, I've seen Hong Kong and Korean, don't like their style. Local has always been the flavour for me. Until I decided to try jdorama, well one word to sum it up is, Impressive. The opening of a drama is the thing that makes or breaks it, and the first one I saw captivated me. I have never seen a better opening before. What makes it better is the attention to detail, somehow the jdoramas can bring detail subtly, I've seen local productions trying to do the same thing, but they are just too obvious, it's like screaming to you, "Hey! Look at me!" Their humour is also something I like, I don't know how to describe but, I just like it haha.

So after watching my first jdorama 7 times, I moved on to my second, ain't much to comment on though..

Well, all in all, even though there were some mistakes or something you can comment on in the first dorama I watched, as with the second, they have risen straight from unknown to top of my charts.

神への私の手紙: 二番目に Ophh...kwjqwpl yv wqjtctcs ce hpaw djcl...oyo, T vrkw kje wdjw tw ojk vrmd pjktpq wdjc T wdyrsdw...T djzp yche j epjq hpaw...syw wy ly ve xpkw...

23 December 2007
Guess I'll start writing the unwritables...but of course they'll all be coded. Go ahead, you'll know more of me when you break my code...here goes...

神への私の手紙: 最初に T jv krmd j deuymqtwp. Jvycs vpc, T wdtcg T jv Syl, Tc aqycw ya eyt, T wjhg htgp T jv ky hyohe...wdtk deuymqtke...jv T qpjh?

21 December 2007
Hm...just tested my voice again, and found that I could sing from E2 to G4. Big improvements, in the long past I could barely hit E4. Woot, looking forward to increase that range haha! Anyway, with that voice range, if I were to be in a choir, I'll be able to handle Bass to Baritone...wow...but I guess would be more comfortable to be in Bass!

Anyway, speaking of voice range, Charis, you told Junyong and I that you have a 3.5 octave voice...at the point of listening, I thought, oh yeah maybe...but today as I tested, 3.5 octave equivalent to my voice is singing E2 - B5 IN FULL VOICE, not to mention that female voices are on average half octave higher than males. Maybe you have a low voice, but, seriously, E2 - B5 is just crazy...I'm not believing that until I personally see and hear for myself.

19 December 2007
Mm..last night, while returning home from the prayer meeting on the train, I played 4 games with the other commuters. The first game started at City Hall. Initially I felt someone lean against me, so I thought it was the centrifugal forces, but then I felt the lean again, so I thought "What the hell?", so I sought information and found it was a female, standing probably around my shoulder blade. I thought it was those shit with the elderly again. The next time she leaned, I leaned as well, yeah..so we were having this butt wars. Then her stop came, Bugis I guess, when the train stopped, she slightly lost her balance and fell into me a little, offered her apologies. Then I saw that it wasn't an elderly...it was probably someone my age or something...then I thought, I don't care about her apology for falling into me, since I could see that it was her preparation that wasn't enough, what I matter more is the butt war...man...

Second game. This one's real short, some time later, some woman on my right bent down or something and my finger was getting crushed by her butt. So the objective of this game was to extract my fingers without arousing attention...so I did exactly that, waiting for the moment when the pressure lifted and I moved my hands up.

Third game. In front of me there was this lady talking to some guy, ain't know the relationship. Each time she has to move, or lean backwards, and my objective in this game was to "Avoid the hairball or you may suffocate". Right, did it twice...and I think I managed to get someone behind me in the game as well.

Fourth game. This is the longest game played. I had been playing this from Kallang. That is, laugh without being seen. The idea of writing "butt wars" was so funny to me that I just kept laughing. I could engage more people within this game but my main hunter was the lady on my left. So I was laughing laughing laughing...when I reached Kembangan, someone sneezed, and personally I found it very funny, so I laughed even more...strangely though, I never laughed after stepping out of the train...hm...

17 December 2007
Fuck...I really wonder what Jesus felt when He had to repeat himself 6 times over the same thing...three times of the same shit is enough for me...

Man...if you're not going to trust me, why even fucking bother asking me for help huh?

15 December 2007
I never thought I'll do this...but here...is my first YouTube video ever...do support!

My First YouTube Video!

15 December 2007
Okay, so yesterday I went out for a cellgroup outing to celebrate the birth of Jesus. Ah, as usual, I ate my favorite West-North Wind, Ahaha! So delicious!

Met Kelvin earlier and he was scared to walk by Shibuya...nice nice...hm...then it was playing games while waiting for food, it's Charades + Pass the Message game. So the first one was my team to do it and the message is so messed up! My final guess was "Pulling bluetack" when the original answer was "Vending Machine" or something around vending machines. Hm...now I know who to look for for a winning team :D.

Okay, at the end of it we went out to National Library's open space to engage in the gift exchange and singing. Gave a brief idea what our gifts were...thought Penny's was a USB powered scent release. Ended up getting her gift and it was pretty close...USB powered eye massager haha..hm...I think pictures will speak more than words huh?

Oh...talking about pictures, I'm starting to feel my digital still camera is pretty limiting now...maybe it's simply because I'm not a flash guy. Stubborn stubborn...well, below are the better ones out of the crap photographs haha...the total come up to about 25MB, so, just open the links and then save them if you want them.

Da Hong + Peter!
It's blur, yes I know
Effects!
Just about the same shot
GameMaster talking "trash" haha!
It's a ghost!
Dig in!
Eat!
???
Monster?
Man of thoughts?
Some group photo
Making a deadly concoction
Eating the concoction.
Head-to-Head
Gift Exchange
Same thing
Shadowless kick!
Candle's burning
Gillian's head is on fire!
More effects
N20
N20 Another
N20 Grouped
N20 Grouped Another
N20 Grouped Another Again
Noticed Anything yet?
Me & Jinlong!
Jinlong + some
The soldier!
Jinlong & Da Hong!

11 December 2007
You should be able to figure out how to scroll without the buttons.

04 December 2007
Had my medical checkup at CMPB yesterday. Slightly disappointed, my medical report all showed Pes A, then at the last station, I was told I would be in Pes B...dang...think I am too light...

Anyway, had aptitude test after that and I accidentally rebooted the whole thing, next came a password screen, two actually, and I broke both of them...wtf man...their password is so easy...

Today, as I was in the lift, this elder-lady asked me which floor I'm going, I said it and all she did was stand back and do nothing...wow? I wouldn't say anything if she hadn't asked at all, but the fact that she asked and did nothing, really brings up a good topic to talk about.

02 December 2007
I wonder how many have been blessed by last night's service...After Pastor Kong told us to do that cupped hands thing, I could feel His love and His healing also came...All of a sudden my blocked nose just cleared man...all the way till the night...and now, I could feel that my body is at about 80% Praise God!!

01 December 2007
Wow a new month already...anyway, yesterday I had a chance to take bus 25 to cellgroup. I saw 854 reaching way ahead of me and I thought of 25, but I also wanted to wait for the next 854 but decided not to. Time to compare the two services. This might get a bit technical.

SMRT Forced Induction: Supercharger.
SBS Forced Induction: Turbocharger.

You must be thinking, "Huh? Just comparing the FI method?" That's right, that is enough already. If you want to know more about FI or vehicles or anything, I'll answer to the best I can.

Because SMRT buses uses superchargers, they accelerate much faster compared to the turbochargers of SBS buses. From what I observe, SBS buses even though uses a small turbocharger, it still cannot beat the fully "engaged" mode of a supercharger. More technical stuff here. As superchargers are tied to the engine, they start working once you step on the gas, giving a linear boost to redline. Turbochargers are tied to the exhaust system, and needs to spool up for a moment before power is delivered, that is known as turbo lag.

Well, bus 25 has its advantage as well...in 854, you usually see working class, elderly people, while in 25, you get to see younger people. But letting that factor affect my judgement is stupid, verdict: 854 is better!

26 November 2007
Scary week...these few days I've been feeling tired for no reason. Anything I do is tiring, even sitting...and my eyes can't really focus well, I see slightly blurred images just about all the time. The most shocking was this morning...I woke up, washed up and entered this website where I have the music going and I thought to myself, is the wire for the speaker loose?

So I "fixed" it, only to find out that the sound was perfectly fine as the sound was totally gone from the right speaker as I moved the wire. So I moved it back and got both sides back, after about 10 seconds, I thought again, did the sound go? I fixed the thing only to find out the same problem...

So I just placed my ears close to the speakers to hear once and for all, and I could hear that the right speaker was very muted. Then I tried again, using my left ear to listen, and it was fine!

Then I used my right ear, and that was then...I realised that my hearing was about 80% gone...the sounds I hear from my right ear was so muffled...then as time passed, the hearing returned, but it's not 100%, I still think my right ear is hearing things softer than normal...

25 November 2007
I noticed my prayer in spirit has become stagnant, probably because recently, I cut it short due to "tiredness", is it truly fatigue? But anyway, I asked for His guidance and I really could feel the difference. As I ended into quiet time, God spoke to me, "Genesis". Initially I didn't do anything, I just wanted to ignore it, but I told myself, "Get up!", I hit the lights on and took my bible, I got no idea what to read, so I read from Genesis 1:1. Well, prior to that, I was thinking Genesis 6:14, hahaha...but let's continue. So I read that in the beginning the world was void, God said let there be light and there was light, God saw that all he had done was good. Then I read this verse, and it stood out to me...The following are the verses for the revelations I've gained.

Genesis 1:26. Notice what God said, "Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeliness." Why did God use "Our" instead of "My"? Is this the first clue to the Holy Trinity? I shall ask...

Rickson, this is specifically for you, remember the other time that you told me that people speculate that Adam could jump super high or dive super deep? Well, those speculations can end. Let's look at Genesis 2:19. "Now the Lord God had formed out of the ground all the beasts of the field and all the birds of the air. He brought them to the man to see what he would name them." I think this is very self-explanatory...Adam didn't have to catch those animals, it was God who brought them to him.

This didn't really strike me deeply but as I gave thought, I was thinking, "Hey! Yeah!", so I'll write it down. Why does being in labour hurt? Because God made it so, Genesis 3:16. "I will greatly increase your pains in childbearing; with pain you will give birth to children." Another self-explanatory one.

Okay, this is what I have so far, even though I have no idea what these verses are going to do for me, I'll wait patiently...praise be to his Holy name.

24 November 2007
What the hell is going on, my body is becoming highly energy inefficient. If I were to plot a graph under exertion, my energy level falls exponentially compared to a more linear pattern in the past.

Also, it is now very evident to me that the transfer of strength between muscle groups is slower. For example, taking a first step right from a sitting position makes me stumble more often now. Though increase in output remains instantaneous, seems to me that my body's strength has shifted from Balance to Strength, got to pull my Stamina up.

Eating is a little more painful now...but among all these "bad" things, there are still good ones definitely. Didn't have a chance to share, but thank God for increasing my voice range. In the past, though my range is 2 octaves, the comfortable area for me is barely 1.5 octaves. Yet now, I can comfortably hit 2 octaves, and with Vibrato as well...that IS cool...

23 November 2007
Woot, many days without a post, but what can you do!? Huh!?!?

Had fun last night at MindCafe for the cellgroup outing. Man...my table was the noisest with all the crazy games...

Then had to choose a ministry to serve in, so okay...there was this one that was screaming at me and so I chose it...

Recently, wonder if it's due to the growing wisdom tooth or something, my teeth are pushed further out of position, I can't eat with my right, as one of my tooth will scrape my mouth cavity and there already is an ulcer of some sorts. I can't eat with my left as the teeth are further bent and it is more like eating using the wrong side of your teeth...pretty cool...

17 November 2007
Okay, I didn't want to post this actually, but last night I reached the limit and was feeling very angry as I lay on bed last night. Warning, possibly extremely harsh contents below.

Initially, I didn't want to mention names, but I thought this post is already going to be very long, I do want to keep it straight to be point as much as possible, and also, with names pointed out, I hope the person will be able to take note and do something.

Point 1: Rickson, two weeks ago when the word for the cellgroup had ended and we had finished preparing the refreshments, ready to say grace. But then you came up and say listen to your favorite song, I thought it was a short one, and when you played the first one, it was as said about Spongebob or something, and I thought "Okay, let's say grace", but then you came up with 2 more songs, I don't know about the others, but personally, I was waiting for 5 minutes listening to "crap" just to say grace. I wanted to tell you whether could we say grace first then we can listen while eating. That way, there is more efficiency to time usage. That day, for me, I was feeling peeved.

Point 2: Jing Jie. I've forgotten when this was, but, while you were starting to say grace, you kept interrupting with jokes. Okay, once or twice is fine, but three to four times of the same joke over is time wasting.

Point 3: Charis. Personally, very honestly, I didn't mind what you said last night. But suppose, I am someone who is very sensitive, emotional and focus highly on ties. Your comment, could possibly send me into depression, drive me into suicide, make me leave the cellgroup, or worse of all, leave the church. Reason, rejected in front of about 10 people, isn't a good feeling for most people I think. There are many better ways to react than you did. You could shrug it off, you could just go "Ha ha", or even if you had to react that way, at least drop the "Eeyer" part. Seriously, if you have anything about me that makes you go "Eeyer", just tell me straight in the face, if I can, I will change. It is little things like this that keep, or drive people away. And once again, I emphasize on the fact that I wasn't affected in any bit, I am only writing this as an observer.

Point 4: Fish & Co "Outing". Charis's birthday if you can't get the link. Okay, so then, there were two groups. One eating, the other not. When Junyong and Jiawen were still around, I didn't really see it, but when they left for work, it became very obvious. The eating group engaged only themselves and left Ming Yu(Not sure if I spelt it right) and me out. I didn't mind the lack of attention as I like being a loner, but I don't know about Ming Yu. He probably was like me, entertaining himself quietly. But when I tried to talk to him, I found out he actually had a lot to say, and wanted to talk about them. So we chatted for a bit, and when I stopped. Many times, he started a conversation, and in my mind I groaned, "Huh? Somemore?", but because he wanted to talk, and I probably was the only listener then, I did my best to entertain him. What could I lose? I had nothing to do and I could learn about his NS life. This may seem like going downhill, but this day didn't end badly for me. The good thing I had from the outing is I experienced your love very strongly, N20. I don't know how many, but I'm guessing each of you, when you gave up some of your food for me, I was touched, and I don't know why, but Penny, when you asked the question, I really didn't know why, but if I hadn't inhibited the action, I would have teared there.

Point 5: Bonding. This can be tied to point 4. Each cellgroup or service, I usually could put people into groups, it is fine to be in groups, but when the groups tune other groups out, that's when things are bad. Many a times, what I see is, there'll be two groups chatting heartily, then there'll be the individuals watching, or making small talk with the other individuals. A minority of the people will initiate conversation with the individuals while a majority are classified as grouped. The point here is, there already are signs of disunity even within a group of 10, how then are we supposed to reach out to others? It is like a tree, rotting at the core, and trying to grow its branches. Sooner or later, the tree is going to kill itself growing up.

Well, that's it, or so I guess...surely, the points I've made here did give me some bad feelings. But I do understand that no one is perfect, these are the things I see as an observer and I hope this post will not be in vain or worse bring regret.

16 November 2007
Sad versus Touching. Do you know the difference between them? It is okay if you're a little confused, but if you think they can be used interchangeably, you are very wrong.

I won't go into dictionary definitions to leave the avenue open for people to correct me if they think I'm wrong somewhere. Okay, here goes.

Sad or Sadness. Primarily, it is an emotion of sorrow experienced by animals.
Being touched or when something is touching means that something provoked you into emotion.

Sally is crying for she is sad over the loss of her dog.
Sally is crying for she is touched over the loss of her dog.

I guess you could very well see what the difference is. Another one, know Evan Almighty the movie? I cried watching it, was I sad? Impossible, the movie was such a comedy, in fact, I don't even recall a single element of sadness within the movie. Why then did I cry? I was touched, something in the movie provoked me into emotion.

Now, the good part. A sad show, or a touching show? If a show is full of tears, every episode you see 10 people crying and if the 10 people all cry over the loss of a pet, do you think you'll feel anything? Subjectively, yes, it is a very sad show, 10 people lose their pets in every episode. But objectively? If the show is 10 episodes long, are you going to cry a 100 times? I say highly impossible. In that case, the show is sad yes, but not touching.

For the touching show part, I won't draw scenes as it is too subjective. But on the whole, if you cry over watching something, it is because you were touched, not because you were sad. A show can be very sad, so sad that people in it walk around crying 24/7, but if there isn't that trigger, it remains only a sad show.

Emotions, cannot be shared. Oh hang on, before you make a mental note of this to rebutt me, let me finish. Emotions cannot be shared, what makes emotions seem "share-able" is something else called Sympathy. Picture Sally again, sitting in front of her house crying. You walk pass and you see Sally, you stop and you ask her why is she crying and she tells you. There are only two possible reactions here. One, you go "Wtf? Crying over a pet?", Two, her experience hits you as you have experienced the loss of a pet before. That's when you connect, sympathy kicks in and all of a sudden, you could feel her pain.

Picture a parent and a child watching a very sad show. The parent can cry like crazy, but the child remains indifferent. The child knows how to cry, yes. But why is it Sad Show + Parent = Tears, while Sad Show + Child = Nothing? The reason is simple, sympathy is non-existent, a child simply is not emotionally mature enough to sympathize. It always starts with selfishness while sympathy slowly comes in, though how much of selfishness remains is very subjective.

Okay, this is the end of it, hope you can gain some insight. As always, I am open to rebuttals.

13 November 2007
34.6 centigrade, wow...the temperature in my room today sure is high! In fact, today is pretty warm. Anyway, tomorrow is wednesday...yay...

11 November 2007
Well well, just recovered from food poisoning. I wouldn't even consider it food poisoning, but under western medicine, it is food poisoning. Started on friday around 0500 or so, didn't take note of the time, but at that time I noted massive gas production and the memorable pains of indigestion.

So I didn't eat, only drank, went to poo and as I sat up, I immediately felt like puking, the sink was close, so I only needed to turn around, but this vomiting is unlike anything I've experienced. I expelled lots of gas which in the process contracted my stomach like crazy, after about 4 times of coughing, then bile came out. I wouldn't call it bile, it's green liquid that smelt heavily of bile. Immediately felt better.

Took a drink before going down to school for a talk with Ron Kaufman. The guy sitting beside me kept shaking his legs, making me feel sick again. When the talk ended, I went to the toilet to poo again. Walked to where I parked my bicycle and halfway through, I puked again. Same thing, nothing but green-bile. Lucky thing the pool was nearby, cleaned up a bit at the pool and cycled home. Man, the 2nd vomiting drained all my strength, taking the same path, a 20 minute ride became a 40 minute ride. Many times I wanted to stop, even though it's probably in the wrong context, but Kito Aya gave me a lot of strength, just one more pedal, one more step, I trashed my way home. Oh, I did stop once, after carrying my bicycle over the bridge, I didn't want to make a long detour.

Back to topic, upon reaching home, I was thirsting like hell, even though I had made a connection between drinking and vomiting, I drank quite a lot...and rested, till about 1500, I "woke-up", upon straightening my body, the nausea kicked-in, and I went to the sink to puke, this time it came out slightly easier, and because of the amount I drank, I puked a lot as well, the pungence of the bile was less strong, and I mananged to see what was causing me to puke, I don't know the name of it in english, but it's some sort of a dessert, ask me, and I'll tell you. Mom called, as she knew I vomited in the morning, just as I was half-way, so I had no choice but to leave the call hanging for quite a while before rushing to get it. Told her I need a doctor, and probably will call my dad. Well, my mom beat me to it and dad called after I finished cleaning up. So I waited for him to come back.

It was around 1600 when he reached home, I initially wanted to go to the hospital as I thought a fever of 38.3, I brought it down to 37.6, now note that according to my thermometer, my normal body temperature is around 36.4, so it was almost a 2 degree increase. But then, he convinced me that we'll start with a private clinic first.

Okay, that "I-have-seen-a-doctor effect kicked in, and I was stronger a bit, but not as long as when I was younger. Reached home, it was close to 1700 I think, I waited a while, heated the porridge which was supposed to be my lunch. Took the "before-meal" medicine and ate a bit, rested, and 15 minutes later, continued with the "after-meal" medicines, and I realise, the pharmacist shouldn't have removed panadol from my prescription. She thought I didn't need panadol for vomiting, but forgot that I had fever. And I saw that I had cough syrup, huh? Cough syrup? Maybe the doctor wanted to induce drowsiness...okay...I rested, and after a while, I vomitted the same stuff again, but the pungence was a lot less strong.

Initial thoughts, medicines aren't working. The "before-meal" medicine was supposed to get rid of the gas and stop me from vomiting but what the hell, I just didn't bother and waited.

Saturday. I felt confident to eat, ate some a piece of Gardenia white-bread, after not eating them for months, man, are they salty...of course I took the meds as well, but hey! No more vomiting. Though my stomach felt weak, I practically slept through the whole day. Came to 1100, and ate, slept till 1200, thought I heard rain dying out. Slept till 1400, decided to bathe. Took my temperature, it went back to 38.4. My mom told me to use hot-water to bathe before she left for work, but seeing my temperature, I decided to use the cold to my advantage, took a cold bathe and took my temperature, 35.9.

A little too much, but hey, I got what I wanted, with temperature stabilized, I was more energetic, watched television, received Rickson's message to view the live service but I didn't want to move. After dinner, I felt like eating biscuits, so I ate them, but I broke them up and softened them with loads of saliva before swallowing. Night came and I realised my vision was affected. Focus at a certain distance was not maximum and staring at a spot will cause the images to waver.

Decided to sleep at 2100, but like friday, only managed to sleep around 0000 or so. Sunday, today. Complete recovery, or so I guessed. Ate meals like normal, feel normal, but my stomach still feels weak, especially with singing, it makes me feel sick.

After a long post, I won't say I hate the experience, in fact, I like it. A lot of questions were answered in these 2 days. One, cold/ice-water bath is freaking effective. Two, panadol does work for fever, it brings down about 0.5 centigrade per 2 pills for me. Three, I could see how strong exactly I was.

Watched the live service for Rev. Dr. Ulf Ekman, hope I didn't spell the name wrong. Great service and wow 4 hours haha!

Had a small discovery, the out-of-focus vision I'm having plus a little unnatural sweating had me taking my temperature again, 37.4, slight fever, but it beats having vomiting as well. Alright...what a long post!

07 November 2007
It seems that under normal activity, 30 hours is my limit before the first signs of dehydration kicks in...had some sort of weird stomachache on Monday and I can still feel a small bit of its effects today...

03 November 2007
Woohoo! Great day today. Helped out in the Orange Box Launch Party that my brother organized, woot, had fun playing Team Fortress 2, surprised when I won the "Most flags defended" award...Not sure what is counted as "flags" but, if it doesn't count stopping capture of control points, then it means I'm really lucky to get the award by killing one of my friends bearing my team's flag.

Went for service next, and I'm glad to see Da Hong, and even more glad that he accepted Jesus...yay!

30 October 2007
Is it starting again? My body is starting to lose its edge again...though I am building strength, at the same time, I am losing it as well...what is happening?

Saw Guo Mei Mei's advertisement for her new album, got some things to say. It was fine with me when Dracostea Dintei was borrowed, now Lalalove and God is a Girl are also used, what's up with that?

28 October 2007
Had some pretty interesting sights yesterday as I was waiting for the bus to get to church service.

One, saw this girl, there initially wasn't anything interesting at all, but when I saw her sitting down on the bench, I noticed there was something "weird" about her skirt. So when her bus came, as she was walking toward the entrance, the wind blew and I thought it was very weird at how quickly her skirt reacted to the wind, and the wind wasn't very strong either. So the answer came to me as she got closer, the fabric was actually very thin, though there was another underlying layer, a miniskirt with an underlying later that is shorter? Man...clothings are getting crazy. Anyway, the interesting thing here is not anything I've written, but how she reacted, just a very calm sweeping action.

Two, there was this old lady with a purple umbrella, she kept flagging taxis down, the taxi is 100 metres away and she flags it down for 20 seconds continuous that kind of thing, okay, so the first taxi came, it was yellow-top I think, she didn't board, but flagged, put her hand down, hands up, hands down again, at that moment I was already wondering what the hell she was doing, then a guy went and cut her off and boarded the taxi. Second, a trans island came, not sure of the name, but it's the red one. The passenger got off from the front seat, but the old lady did the same thing again. Then a third one came, the passenger got off from the backseat, then the old lady, yes, again did the same thing, until the fourth taxi came, no passengers, comfort, then she boarded. I'm really curious why would she do that. If it's about seats being warm, the second taxi had the passenger in front....okashi ne...

Third, taxis again, but this one's short. A Hyundai comfort taxi was pulling away, when a lady flagged it down, so the driver stopped, he didn't drive in closer as it would make a jam behind the bus stop, which makes sense. Then the lady just stood there, so the driver thought she was flagging the bus down, there was a bus behind then, and started pulling away, then the lady flagged again, so the driver stopped, this time he wouldn't have space to steer in, there was a yellow-top behind him, and started honking, as stopping at that spot is seriously bad. After that, I could see that the driver had no choice but to drive away. But as he drove away, I noticed the lady was slightly bent forward, the driver had his passenger window down. What the hell? Were they trying to talk over a distance of 5 metres on top of traffic noise?

Four, the free shuttle service between Tampines IKEA came, a guy alighted and said "Ouch". Haha...yeah that's it...nothing more...

26 October 2007
Nothing to blog about, but as I woke up today, I felt a strange weakness in my right hand. I have the physical strength to move it around, but it seems as though the internal strength has all been sapped from my forearm, I can feel my strength in my upper arm, but as it comes to my forearm, it feels empty. Also, I can feel it constantly twitching and pulsing. It is extremely evident when I lift my mouse up just a little and watching the cursor vibrate in all directions...

Haha, I just find it cute, don't worry about me, it'll go away soon.

20 October 2007
After months of rehabilitation, I have finally learnt to walk again. Not to be mistaken, I am not a trauma victim, but because of some stupid mentality when I was younger, I caused damage to my legs, good thing they aren't permanent...

To find out what I corrected, you can either ask me, or simply look up "Knock-knee" or "bow-legs".

18 October 2007
After playing Trauma Center: Second Opinion on the Wii for a while now, this is what I just realised. None of the characters except for the two playable doctors are masked in the OT! Wow...that is such a no-no in life! But I guess that's the only way for the supporting characters to show their emotions via the graphics.

For a good game, I still have some of my gripes. One, the use of the defibrillator (I thought this word was spelt defilberator), recently I discovered that one effective technique to place them is to raise the Wiimote and the Nunchuk, but I had that technique fail on me once or twice. Then I had to push and pull the controllers at random to get it working.

Two, talking. The talking within the OT even though sometimes is useful, had me make mistakes many times before, especially when using the forceps, the game locks up and engages into talking mode, I'll try to use the forceps and think that I fail to pick the object up when I was actually scrolling through the texts using the A button, then when the talking ends, there it goes, one mistake because I picked and dropped the shit.

Three, one of the missions, "For The Greater Good", the girl with that constant cardiac arrest, my suggestion is, if her heart is failing, freeze the game! If you are fast, you'll know when her heart will fail, and it always occurs when I'm suturing the artificial valve in place, and when her heart fails there, I will keep on suturing, thinking my stitches missed and make about 3 more mistakes before Angie comes with the defibrillator.

Four, within the same mission, there is no way I can make a incision of the heart properly, I only managed to achieve a "Good" with much luck...I'm wondering how I can score a "Cool" on that one...

Five, Angie, no that was a joke...actually this is very minor, the interface, the characters are well-done, but you rarely even look at them as their headshots are placed to the right, far off the text space, so you only get to take a good look at the characters during the character introductory scenes, twice for Angie I think.

Six, this is an afterthought but...here it is, vagueness. The instructions sometimes can be vague, the mission where you had to clear thrombi or something, the second time I tried that operation, I scanned, forceped and scalpeled through the whole operation till the patient died, and I did that twice, before I actually looked down at the text area and saw that Angie was telling me to drain the shit away, wtf? 10 minutes wasted like that.

But overall, good game along with Boxing from Wii Sports!

17 October 2007
Change of song again!

Hm...had my NAPFA test again yesterday. Here are the results. Sit ups: 43, A. I wasn't as strong yesterday compared to the previous attempt, but still it was an A. Standing Broad Jump: 235cm, C. This one is leveled. Sit and Reach: 41cm, C. I didn't bother to increase my score in this as my pull up had already bottom out my score. Pull-ups: 3, E. I don't really see this as an improvement as it roughly is the same as what I did the previous time. 4 X 10 Shuttle Run: 10.7 seconds, D. Running on different ground, I started off-time and I went over the line the first time I went down. As with Sit and Reach, didn't bother to increase my scoree. 2.4km Run: 12:06, D. There are certain reasons for this score I think, first, I drafted off someone for quite a while. Second, my weight reduction package, 1 - 2KG drop in 15 minutes, maybe girls will be interested in how I do that haha!

13 October 2007
Tales of the Missing Money

Story One: I had 2 ten-dollar note. Went to buy plastic bowls at 1.50 dollars. Resulting money, 1 ten-dollar note, 1 five-dollar note, 1 two-dollar note, 1 one-dollar coin and 1 50 cents coin. Went to church and was told to get the Getting Started Bible Study Book. Pulled out my wallet with confidence and alas, somehow that 1 ten-dollar note that I know I have is gone! Extremely freaky, weird.

Story Two. After giving to cellgroup fund with 1 ten-dollar note, resulting change is 3 two-dollar notes. Yesterday, as I looked through my wallet, 1 two-dollar note is gone? What the heck? There is absolutely no way that I have spent that two dollars. These mysteries have really gotten me very puzzled...

12 October 2007
Nothing much to say here, but Yvonne Lim looked great in last night's Metamorphosis.

11 October 2007
I want to talk cars today!

One thing I notice among car enthusiast is, immaturity. Most of the time I see people go, "That suck, it sucks, all sucks, this rules." Even though it happens in other topics as well, but I've never really seen ones that can compare to the level the automobile lovers can. Come on, we know people have different tastes, but wouldn't it be better if people can take it amiably and say something probably like, "I know it does this and that, but it just certainly is not to my liking, I'm still sticking to this this this." You get your point across without jumping down people's throat. I think the world needs to learn to do that...

I don't know when, but recently hearing the Blow-Off Valve of cars is something quite common in our roads today, turbochargers have been around for long but why only do they pick-up recently? No idea on that...talking about turbochargers, it is weird how people keep ranting on about turbocharger but not about superchargers.

Even though there are techniques to reduce turbo lag, they use more fuel to spin more turbines, I'm talking about using a smaller and a bigger turbine here compared to an instant boost from a supercharger. In the past, I like turbos more for their BOV, then I started prefering superchargers more, they sound better, even though they sap more fuel than their counterparts, they yield a lot more power for exchange. But all in all, I am no longer into Forced Induction setups, I go for Naturally Aspirated power now!

I have a lot more to say, and this looks like it'll be a very long post, do enjoy :)

Then there's a question of Top Speed versus Acceleration. Personally I favor acceleration. It is useless to have a car that maxes out at 330km/h but achieves 0 - 100 in a minute. Of course it is also useless to have a car that achieves 0 - 100 in 4 seconds but maxes out at 100. But taking this two cars, if you were to pit them head-to-head, the one with the stronger acceleration is going to have a huge lead even after 2 minutes. If the first car achieves 0 - 100 in 1 minute, it's going to need 8 minutes to reach 200km/h. I'm not sure if it applies this way to cars, but I do know for a human, to output twice of what you're doing requires 8 times of what you input.

Now comes to a question, what transmission? There are four types, 4WD, AWD, FWD and RWD. It basically means, Four, All, Front and Rear Wheel Drive. The difference between 4WD and AWD is a pain in the ass to explain which I will not write here, otherwise this section might become an essay. Basically, as the name implies, FWD cars are powered from the front wheels, RWDs, the rear. And a general rule to remember, FWDs understeer and RWDs oversteer. Have a look at this funny video on the explaination, http://youtube.com/watch?v=oZ8j4X20uvI U.Steer vs O.Steer. Okay, that video is a little bit exaggerated but if you need practical evidence, the first related video there should show you. And if you still do not understand. Understeer refers to the car's refusal to turn which generally throws you to the outside of a curve. Oversteer is the kicking-out of the rear end which generally places you closer to the inside of a turn.

Now, we're finished with the transmission, now, position of the engines. Again, more acronyms for you. Basically, FF, FR, MR, RR. The first letter refers to the position of the engine, Front, Middle or Rear. The second letter refers to the transmission, as explained above, FWD or RWD. It's strange now that I realise there is no classification for the 4/AWDs. Weird...

What's the difference again? Most family cars you see now are FF. It's a lot of history but the advantages are, better fuel economy, better cabin space, better control in normal circumstances and lower build cost. Your typical family car setup, seriously. MR is perfect for race cars, weight distribution is very close to 50/50, but one serious drawback is cabin space, MR cars are usually two seaters. And finally RR, this setup is for freaks as it is extremely easy to oversteer. You get the advantages of FF cars, plus the increased power in acceleration minus the control of the FF or even a MR.

That much said, what do I prefer, very obviously MR setups. But of course, those are rare, I'll go RR next, FR and finally FF. I'm not sure where the engines are placed in 4WDs, but so far what I know is the Porsche 4WDs are rear-engined. Definitely looking forward to my first Porsche haha...

Woo, it's been a long post! Hope you enjoyed reading.

10 October 2007
The new song has been uploaded.

Though it's sung by Koreans, there are spanish as well. Though I think it ain't too much a big deal, I still think it'll be better if the whole song is sung in Korean...

Anyway, do enjoy!

09 October 2007
It's coming to the end of the first week, song will change tomorrow. Found a song sitting around in my harddisk, Baby Vox or something like that. As you keep coming back, you'll slowly find out what do I focus most in a song.

Enjoy!

07 October 2007
I really have pushed myself too hard, my muscle strains are probably at Grade 2 right now, and that scares me as I have never torn my muscle beyond Grade 1. Swelling is very visible to sight and touch. I have read up many times on steps to heal muscle strains, RICE which means. Rest, this I can't agree any further, rest is extremely important with muscle strains. Ice, it is said that ice packs will stop swelling and internal bleeding, I have even seen one article that says cold will increase blood flow. I can agree to the first part aboout reducing swelling. But increasing blood flow with cold? And I believe that with the cold and your circulation slowed, the repair to the tissues will be slowed.

Compression, applying compression to relieve swelling, never tried this before.
Elevate, like icing, I believe that it does not benefit the strain by reducing blood flow.

So far, the best way for me is to rest and give very light massage. Even though my range of movement has dropped further, I can at least walk properly now...

Anyway, you guys remember the cockroachy I talked about yesterday? Well, it appeared again. Not in the middle of the night, not on my bed, but on the floor just as I was about to sleep, something just made me turn the lights on and I saw it walking slowly on the floor. Killed and threw it away...yay...no more night visits!

06 October 2007
Second post of the day, just assessing the damage my body has sustained. Strain in left triceps, left wing. Strain in upper back, lower ribs, abdomen. Major strain in both thighs. Slight strain in left calf.

Overall it doesn't affect me very much, except for my movements and breathing. Standing up and standing can be real painful, walking is at least slightly easier. Sometimes breathing can be painful...haha...man...how weak am I...

But it's okay, I've resolved to go back to the Track and Field team, it's time I build up my strength.

06 October 2007
It's 0300 right now, I know it's a weird time for me to be up, I want to sleep as well but...here is the story. I woke up at around 0250 feeling very hot, my aircon has this problem where it sometimes will start emitting warm air which I usually tolerate, but this night was different, as I tried to go back to sleep, I had my right palm under my head and I felt things jumping about my hand. Wonder if it's real or simply a fear effect, but I started feeling jumping things on my skin around my head area as well.

Finally I couldn't stand it anymore, hit the lights on and try to figure out what was going on. Found nothing, turned the aircon off, went outside, looked myself in the mirror and just lightly washed my hands and took a drink. Turned the aircon back on and sat on the edge of my bed, enjoying the direct cold air blasts, then I turned my head and saw it. I'm not sure if I said wtf but I definitely did say omg, guess what? A nice big cockroach strolling around my pillow. Shit...it's so disgusting...and I thought that those jumping things I felt could be the from the roach's feelers...damn...I now don't want to put my head back on the pillow!

Even though I'm very tired, I'll try staying up or maybe sleep with the lights on...man...

Some of you know that I took my NAPFA test yesterday. Well the Gold I was hoping for, I couldn't get it. But I'm glad that I have a chance to see where my physical level is. So let's break it down.

Sit ups: 43, A. Well, it's good that I got an A, but it was kind of shocking that my abs started feeling the strain when I reached 20. I worked my way to 43, easing off at 40 and had about 10 seconds worth of rest till time is up.

Standing Broad Jump: 235cm, C. Not too bad, within my expected range. Can't say I can go further, I managed to go 238 the first jump, but the second jump of 235 was recorded instead, but it's the same band anyway, so it doesn't matter.

Sit & Reach: 42cm, C. This one's easy, I could go further, but I thought it was enough for a C, since I had an A in situp and am confident of at least a B in other stations.

Pull ups: 2, F. I have strength in me, but it just doesn't come out. Need more training in this.

4 X 10 Shuttle Run: 10.2 seconds, B. I was about struggling with this, my legs couldn't keep up with my body and I was just about trying to stay upright while going at maximum speed.

2.4km run: 13.22 minutes, F. This is a shock, running is an activity that I always excelled in. Need loads of training here.

An overview would be, I am definitely much weaker than when I was in secondary school, but the results could also be due to a gamble I took that went wrong haha, took isotonic drink before the test and by the time I was done with situps, I was just about starting to feel the side effects of a sugar spike. There'll be a re-test on the 16th, I just hope that my muscle strains now will be all gone fast, so I may get on to training up more. I'll keep trying till I get my gold...

04 October 2007
Hope you are enjoying the new song.

What are the most important instruments in music, well..I don't believe there are any most important, they need to complement each other. But personally, the instruments found in a standard orchestra are just right. I tend to favor string quartets and brass instruments probably with percussions, woodwind is just not my idea. And, to cure some people's misconception, some people think that the flute is exclusive to the chinese orchestra and the clarinet is exclusive to the orchestra. Well true in a certain sense, I have not seen an instrument in a chinese orchestra that is similar to the clarinet, but, the orchestra does have flutes and they operate the same way as the one in the chinese orchestra, parallel to the ground. Get that right.

The piano, generally considered keyboard instrument, but if you really look at the mechanics, it can be considered a percussion instrument. A hammer strikes strings when a key is pressed with enough force. I generally do not like the sound of an upright piano, the low and high registers are not as well defined as one from a grand piano. Sound quality on comparison is also very obviously different. A grand piano delivers the sounds very clearly while some uprights give too muted a sound.

Pranks -- I found this and it's really funny for me, I had my tears flowing out, especially around 1:48.

03 October 2007
Hello again!

I've decided to change the background music, most probably I will change them every week. Don't ask me for the songs as I will not give them out. I might sacrifice loading times for quality, it depends, some song sound like shit on low quality.

Now this shall drive traffic up!

30 September 2007
You ever got worried for a total stranger?

Last night as I was returning home in my dad's vehicle, I saw this lady alone, crouched down, carrying nothing. When I first saw her, logically, analytically, something was amiss. As I looked on, worry started building up and I felt a big urge to stop my dad and just go up to the girl and get some information, but, he was carrying my relatives as well, so I thought it wouldn't be good, and besides, the traffic was pretty crazy then. She really looked like she was in distress...the only thing I could do was pray. I don't know what has happened, nor do I know where she is now, but I do know that whatever happens, it will be a best plan from God.

28 September 2007
This will be one long post! Where should I start?

There won't be another singer like him in this world ever again, and I say ever. That's right, world's most beautiful song...the one you're hearing right now...guess who is the singer? Hehe!

God has helped me yet again. I don't think anyone besides JL knows that I'm currently adding loads of functionalities into my website, the diary archive was posting hell lots of problems, the variables I called doesn't seem to work properly at all, then earlier this afternoon, the Lord put an imagination in me, that may solve my problem. Through this thinking, I slowly thought through and saw that it could be me calling my variables at the wrong point, resulting in nothing being changed, will definitely try it out tomorrow, or is it later today? It's already 29 September haha!

People on MSN should have seen I'm going to start modelling for my animation, but then, I haven't even started a bit, seems like it was God again, telling me to start modelling from the front to the back. Well, that looks simple enough, will try it out as well. I'm definitely looking forward to the completion of my modelling..woot!

I have fallen yet again...disappointing...and I feel kind of stupid asking for forgiveness and help in the same area over and over again...but I know I have to stand up and fight harder each time I fall...

I like today's Word during cellgroup, it was a recap of several services and even though I've forgotten what was preached during those servies, today's cellgroup brought those memories back.

Took a run from the cellgroup place to the bus stop for 854 just for the heck of it and also to see how much my training has paid off. The results were disappointing, I have almost fully regained my speed, but my stamina definitely is way below what I used to command...out of time, 5 October is coming and I probably have a maximum of 4 training sessions in tight succession. I'll see and try to work something out.

Met this group of 6, the girl was alright, but the 5 guys...every sentence they spoke sure have some vulgarities and they were like shouting around...so I did a quick prayer asking God to work in them and a little while later, they sort of quietened and the vulgarities ceased. My memories of this part is not very complete, so it either was vulgarities ceasing, or dramatically reduced, even though they started the rowdy behavior just as the bus was pulling into the interchange, I knew God was there.

I just have to write all these down now, I'm kind of pumped up right now, I feel like I can stay awake through the night...really excited for my coming morning, the work I'm going to do. WOOT!

23 September 2007
"Thank you my Abba, for the rest You have descended upon me. Amen."

Slept around 0030 or later. It's a lucky thing I asked what bus services were available at the bus stop Tiffany was alighting at, if not I think I would reach home at probably 0100 instead. Had cellgroup last night. Even though I slept late, slept little, it was on and off, totalling probably 4 hours, when I woke up, I wasn't feeling tired at all.

The refreshments gave some good humour. We were trying to figure out what noodles Jin Long has bought. The description was, "Yellow noodles, but flat ones, but it's not mee-pok." Then it somehow changed to "Short short one."I was trying to figure out what the heck is it, giving "You-mian", "Dong-Fen" as my answers. Good thing JY said it's like mee-pok but thicker. And the image just slowly burned into me, I knew I have eaten that before. Then all of a sudden, I exclaimed, "哦! Lor Mee 的面!" Then the people who're in the conversation started going "Yeah, that's the one." Haha...fun time trying to figure the name, we'll settle with "Lor Mee 的面" first.

19 September 2007
Man...I now realise it is so freaking difficult to get a good reference photo. Maybe I'll go primitive...darn...can't even get started...

16 September 2007
Good fellowship last night. Went to Changi Airport. Wow...it's been 8 years since I last visited it. Things changed, maybe because of the new method of transport available. Had MacDonald's for dinner, wonder is it because of the fizzy drink, my rate of eating or simply I mixed the type of food up, right there and then I gotta poo. Man...the toilets are very clean, and very powerful...flushed on me twice...from my inspection, where it first flushed on me, I reckon it was because I rushed too quickly and had fizzy drinks in between. Soft, very dark brown, great smell all confirms it. Cleaned up, and it flushed on me again. Waste of water, collected the rubbish around the floor and I flushed again.

Too bad if you feel like puking right now, learn to live with it. But the atmosphere at Changi Airport is very serene, feels like I can spend the whole day there. Junyong stayed behind to start his graveyard shift, Tiffany and Jinlong took 34 to somewhere, leaving Rickson, Jing Jie and me on 24, where I alighted at Bedok and went home.

15 September 2007
Yesterday was such a day of God's work. As I walked towards Bedok Interchange, upon entering I saw 854 heading for the boarding berth already, and I thought, I am sure to miss it, but I continued walking at my pace. Somehow, strangely, 854 arrived about 2 seconds before I reached the berth, and there weren't quite a lot of people. I thought it's like wow?

Then after the cellgroup, I left early and walked towards the bus stop. After crossing the zebra crossing, I spotted 854, exactly a reminisce of my first time there. With one variable changed, the lights had been red for a while. Within 5 seconds I made a decision to turn around and run for the next stop. My body or probably brain is weird, it is much better for me to practice or train once and then leave it for a period of days, weeks or even months. Why, when I ran, I found that my running technique has improved a lot, greatly increasing my efficiency, I reached the next stop is just about 30 seconds or so. But prior to that, 854 was already beside me, and thank God the lights turned Red, nobody was even crossing it, it just turned red at that time the bus was about to overtake me, giving me a chance to recover slightly.

Very cool...Sunday is coming, sunday is coming. I trust in the Lord.

10 September 2007
Book of Job is very interesting...so interesting that I don't understand it...definitely worth a second read.

Haven't really heard my rants on this blog have you? Now, I'll do it. It's kind of sad that I realise I've lost touch with myself, why did I even bother to take the "advice" to change myself? Is it for the better, or for the worse...worse I think, becoming "Of the world". That's it, I'm going to find myself again, not going back to the past, as those times were chaos, but finding me, in Him. Saleh.

I am very disgusted at the standard of subtitlelist, if there is such a word, now. I don't really know when this phenomenon started, but, a few years ago, I started seeing people who can't differentiate between "Bath" and "Bathe". I wonder...is it really that difficult?

08 September 2007
Today's service with Nick Vujicic was awesome. Oh, can I use "awesome"?

And if possible, try to get the online sermon!!!

07 September 2007
Been a while now. Caught the finals of the re-run of "The Arena". Really like Akib Kahn from United World College, smooth delivery, composed, quick-witted, stable and he looks good. UWC is a very strong team and I've liked and expected them to be the winners since the first time I saw them.

Primary defences were compromised due to sunburn, so now I'm ill...boo...but I am recovering strong and with much haste with credits to God.

I thought this will be a long entry...weird...anyway, I'll be starting to work on my next animation, won't be long, probably just like 10 seconds or so, and I've got my model pretty much locked. She is gorgeous, can you wait? Ha!

03 September 2007
Wow wow, yesterday's outing at Sentosa was awesome! Met Charis, Kelvin, Jiawen and Junyong at Harbourfront MRT, then proceeded to have breakfast. Jing Jie came just as we were leaving for VivoCity. So we all departed for Sentosa via the train.

Being the first batch, we very quickly realised we had nothing to do. Could only started burying people with sand. Then later, most of our time were spent standing near the waters watching dogs play. Then one of the dogs started digging around the beach, came over to me and just dug right above my left foot, man those claws were sharp, good thing I've been standing there for quite a while and the wave brought sand and buried my legs in.

Things started up when Gui Sheng and Tiffany arrived, there's a volleyball and a mat! At least we could play basketball, volleyball or football. Their arrival also brought the rain! Oh man, we had to move in and out of shelter like 2 - 3 times, but thank God the weather turned dry around late afternoon. Gillian, her husband, Janelle, Jinlong and Siew Ming came. I got no idea when Tiffany's boyfriend and his friend came but they are Junrong and Gabriel. By then, Kelvin had turned a dark red, very sunburned. There were some evidently burned people and some just seem immune to the sun's rays, ha ha..Gui Sheng, did you apply the sun tan oil?

Then just a while later, we packed, cleaned up and proceeded to the bus terminal to have dinner, I was dead-beat by then. Potatoe salad, fried bee hoon, some kind of noodles, sandwiches, home-made cookies, cocktail fruits and drinks make up dinner. My it was very filling, especially the sandwiches, only took 2 of the cookies, was filled up by the time I started on them. After dinner, we went to watch "Songs of the Sea". Like the water one best, great song there and also the fireworks at the end is great as well. SGD6.00 for a 20 minute entertainment is well worth it. Had a photo-taking session after and then we took the train back to VivoCity. Where we split into two groups, one staying to play more, while the other went home. The condition of my skin only became apparent after I bathed, all red and putting clothes on is painful.

Aching all over, muscles and skin...really glad that I got to know N20, you are a great bunch of people!

29 August 2007
Anyone saw the Blood Moon Eclipse last evening?

Well, I wouldn't be surprised if the answer is a "No". The view was obscured by clouds, but I managed to catch it live! I missed the part where the moon came under the Earth's shadow, fell asleep, but I definitely saw the Blood Moon and the phase where it came out. Really nice view, the eclipse lasted from 1800 to about 1915.

27 August 2007
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord.

"They'll kill an ant with a sledgehammer.", "You can say 'Let's go for dinner' and they'll say 'What do you want.'", "They notice the speck in your eye when they've got a plank coming out of their own.". Yesterday's service with Pastor Kong was funny. But I only managed to catch it half-way.

Went to my brother's place and had a lot of fun on Nintendo Wii. The first console that makes me want to buy it. I think the fun lies in the multiplayer aspect and it's very interactive, which is very evident in the game of Tennis, a wide-angle sweep is going to let your Mii, that is your character, hit the ball at acute angles. Think metal slug's control can be better, as it's real hard and tiring to throw grenades.

Maybe you're wondering why I started this entry with "Praise the Lord.", I will tell you...but not now, come for the cellgroup if you want to know :D

24 August 2007
Keep thanksgiving and praise close to your heart and lips, and He who sees, will reward you.

I've decided to not only write significant events in my life, but also my experience. Maybe it'll look random, but trust me, it's not.

22 August 2007
Wooo, went for Prayer Meeting yesterday and it felt very lively. It's weird, probably we're seated at a different side. We sang song in three languages, well, not fully, but, English, Chinese and Korean. Woot! Throughout the meeting, we just prayed prayed prayed, prayed till my mouth is so dry...but of course I decided to not let that stop me. Park Sun Hae also came to sing, she's a good singer...nice...

I want to thank God for His blessings, for He has given me more harvest than what I have sown. Thank You!

18 August 2007
Joyce Meyer is such a powerful speaker! Serious, you got to be there to experience it, excellent speaker.

Anyway, Jinlong, Junyong and me are going to catch Evan Almighty, anyone else interested?

18 August 2007
Wow, it's been many days since I last wrote an entry, this time, it WILL be LONG.

You would have noticed, I've uploaded the revamped version of my website, if you're not surprised, you either haven't been to this site before or you're simply blind.

Went for cellgroup yesterday, took 854 there and alighted early, so I was in totally unexplored territory, as I walked, I started to see that I should be heading west, but I just kept heading north as I thought the numbering at Hougang is also quite messy like it can jump from 100 to 900 by just crossing a street. Anyway, as I kept walking, I noticed a signboard that points northwest showing the blocks like 642, 658 and the likes of it, it really surprised me at how I could see a signboard that far and with detail, thank God I spotted the signboard, if not I would have carried on walking North and ending up somewhere.

Before we started, there was a game of teamwork. 4 people per team, 2 eaters and 2 walkers. 1st eater will guide the 1st walker to get the food, then guide him to the 2nd walker, 1st walker will then guide the 2nd walker to the 2nd eater. After passing the food, the 2nd walker will guide the 2nd eater to bring the food to the 1st eater's mouth. Then the people will switch with everyone moving a step up the cycle. Sounds confusing? Too bad, it's the simplest explanation I can come up with. Anyway, tiFFi, I knew what the 'eee' is about, haha, I really didn't open my eyes at all, my uncertainty in finding Jinlong's mouth should be able to prove it :) and I think Jiawen cheated a bit...knew how to bend down slightly even with no instructions....cheater...boo...oh, and I've gotten the album from Jinlong, cool!

Haven't recovered from my illness, and eating the chicken nugget really made my throat dry and I started coughing like crazy, but during the singing, the coughing slowly started to disappear, and God's presence was so tangible in me.

In the teaching, there is this part where we write down our goals and I think it really helped motivating me into working my sluggishness off, been delaying quite a bit, playing Unreal Tournament like mad until I kept hearing the sounds of the weapon switch on my way and even during the cellgroup.

So it was time to go home, and Jiawen was walking with me to take 854, we were at the crossroads waiting for the lights and then this red car passed by, it was real loud and when I looked at the exhaust pipe, I burst out laughing. That was really the biggest exhaust pipe I've seen ever, it's even bigger than the biggest circle I can make with 10 of my fingers, really, and the way it comes up from the undercarriage and then twisting up at an angle is really funny. I wonder how it even managed to not scrape the floor. Anyway, I think Hougang was some automobile enthusiast, saw quite a number of modded cars at the bus stop. By the way, I was alone in the bus, Jiawen took an earlier 43. The ride home was nothing much but then, as I sort of looked to the right, I heard this loud whoosh of air then saw this black car. PORSCHE! Even though I it was only a glance, I could recognize the shape. Good thing we were stopped at the lights, and looking for the model tag, it started with a C and had a letter S. It was a Carrera S, though I might have prefered the Cayman S, still Porsche yay...and from my bio I think you'll know how much of a Porsche freak I am...and it reminded me of the Porsche stuff I want to get haha...

Finally, Gillian, now we know the power of the word 'Lizard'.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=a6BnxJd6-wo

Okay, that's it, I think it's long enough to keep you around for like 3 minutes.

13 August 2007
He works in ways we cannot see. I always thought the pain in my left middle finger was caused by my nails cutting into my flesh. Body has been extremely 'heaty' this week, and whether it was a pimple or an infection, I noticed a build up of pus at the corner of my finger, squeezed the pus out and the next day, the pain on my finger was totally gone. I believe that without this onslaught of extreme 'heatiness', the pus would never have appeared as the pain has been there for months and I never found the source, except to trim my nails deep. Indeed He works in ways we cannot see.

12 August 2007
Woohoo! Today's the launch of my website. Even so, you must have noticed there are entries earlier than this date. They record the significant events of my life while building this website, so do give them a read!

11 August 2007
There was a Holy Communion today, and being new, definitely questions would arise. What is the significance of the Communion?

The Holy Communion is a method for believers to remember His death until He comes again. And through it, a way is provided to remain spiritually connected with Him. It is for us to realize and acknowledge the depth of His love. He came down from the heavens to suffer for our sins. Before participating, we need to look at ourselves, have we any grudges against anyone? Ask the Lord to forgive us. Then determine to live a Christ-like life.

http://www.tjc.org/catLanding.aspx?tab=follow&catno=follow08

I chose to type key points out, and still provided the source. The reason is, it forces you to read it, understand it and comprehend it, and then going to the source to add more depth to your understanding. It also forces me to learn by having to type it out for you. There are also other interesting articles in the source and I urge everyone, whether believers or not to just take a look, you may find yourself reading more and more.

He who eats of My flesh and drinks of My blood abides in Me, and I in him - John 6:56

07 August 2007
Worked on the revamp of my website. Progress is excellent. I've ported 100% of the things over since I used the exact same variable names, I didn't have to change my codes a single bit. Very happy and proud of myself. Really liking the new design!

Update on my song. Lyrics and tune are completely done, it really is God working with me. All that is left now is to compose the accompaniment on the piano.

05 August 2007
Went for cellgroup today. Learnt significant things about christian life, really good. I wonder if it's the company by Ron and Charis or is it the notion of going home. The MRT trip back home was really fast. I remember how I kept shifting my weight when going towards Admiralty, but after Charis alighted at Bishan, it only felt like 5 minutes and the MRT was already at Newton. Reached home at about 1905. Started preparing for dinner, dad called to carry durians up...had some deep cuts on my legs from those thorns ha...

All of a sudden, I just wanted to write a song. A song to worship God, in just a moment I already had one stanza done. Deciding whether to have a second stanza before a chorus. Writing the lyrics is easy, it's the music and tune that is hard. Hope that Don Moen's music can be my guide and give some inspiration. You bought the album yeah, Jinlong?

04 August 2007
Woot, went for Festival of Praise again. Mostly the same songs, but hey there are some new songs by Delirious? and I like the one about painting the old city red or something like that, and another, can't really remember the tune nor the lyrics. But Don Moen yay...love his songs. Strange thing is, we actually moved left during the worshipping and weren't even aware at all. Ha ha, quite a surprise when we turned around and realised it wasn't our bags when told to be seated.

Pastor Phil Pringle today again. Love his jokes with the fax machine. And like last night time just flew by. It was 2236 in just a flash.

There were seven of us, Charis, Rickson and his friend Walter, did I spell it right, departed another way. Leaving Jinlong, Junyong, Jiawen and me. Took free shuttle bus, wanting to catch the last train so I moved quick into the station, thank God the train that left wasn't the last. Reached Bedok at 2356, strangely there was still one more train heading to Pasir Ris. Reached home at 0008, 05 August!

03 August 2007
Weird dream last night. Woke up at 0238 from a dream of defeat. Can't remember what it was, only remembered it was about being defeated. Went to pee and my cold was the same. Woke up at 0630 by my alarm clock. Strangely enough, the dream of defeat from before, it became a dream of victory. And I woke up with my cold drastically improved...weird...really weird...

Anyway, today's Festival of Praise was great. 3 hours just flew by real quick. It felt like only 30 minutes. Don't know most of the songs sung by Delirious?, but love the songs by Don Moen. They are easy to learn as well. Took the shuttle bus back to Kallang MRT station with Jinlong, Peter and Tiffany. Jinlong separated to take a bus from some bus stop. Peter is heading west. Leaving Tiffany and me on the last train. Woot, it was packed when it arrived, but thank God, there were enough people alighting to make space for us and the other people boarding.

30 July 2007
Think I had a vision last night. Couldn't sleep as I rested quite a lot throughout the day, felt feverish. So I was in the bed and I just kept praying and worshipping and praising. Then all of a sudden lights started to play over my eyes. Started with this really bright light. So bright that it actually hurt and I had to roll my eyes away. Then these waves of light started dancing, red, orange and blue most of the time. Then I saw this image. Two persons on a huge leaf. One is lying on the leaf and the other is kneeling over the one lying. It somehow just hit me that the person lying down was me and the whole image was like a father nurturing his son. Then it was gone and I opened my eyes. The image disappeared really quickly as it appeared. Went out for a pee and saw the clock. 2329, I didn't even know I fell asleep, or perhaps I really did lie on the bed for an hour. It was all so dreamy. As I'm writing this, I don't know if I'm adding things on or was that really what I saw. But as I recollect, I see that in that image, we were both naked but that "father" had this white cloth covering his bottom. Then it somehow just came to me that that "father" was Jesus. And it really felt to me that that was God's promise to nurture me as I continue to grow in Him and walk His path. So...yeah...really nice experience there.

Currently undergoing a absolute-cum-partial fast haha. Why that name you ask. Well, it's not my holidays yet so I still got to go for my attachment and I don't want to risk fainting without breakfast. Mommy will scold me if I told her I'm fasting. So the only time where I can fast is between breakfast and dinner. Drinking only water and resting a lot. Fasting really heals the body you know. So yeah, pray for me as I engage in God's healing from my half-developed cold. I got it under control pretty early, so it's half-developed :)

29 July 2007
My night was disturbed. Woke up twice or thrice with fear. Luckily sleep came almost immediately after I woke up. Woke up about 5 minutes before my alarm will ring. Didn't dare to move due to fear. Just lay in bed with covers up to my neck. The alarm went off and I thought it'll shake me awake, but after stopping the alarm, I just lay back in my bed again and stayed still. I didn't know what I was fearing for. But after 5 minutes, probably even longer. I told myself, it is either I do something or I wait for the sunrise. Spoke out loud "I shall no longer fear." said it again and moved out of bed. It wasn't easy but I knew I had to do it. I walked pretty quickly to the kitchen, repeating those lines. Darkness seemed so penetrating. Reached the light switch and hit it. Woo, relieved..and that was it, life returned to normal after that. But it feels like I'm coming down with a cold...

28 July 2007
Woke up with a bad throat, it's really dry and irritated. Looked out the window and realised there was a haze. That could be the reason. Anyway, went down to expo and forgot it was a deliverance service today probably should say didn't even know ha. Charis called as I was walking towards the platform for the train. First she couldn't hear me, then later I couldn't hear her. Talk about reception. Took the train to Tanah Merah and surprise surprise, Jun Yong and Jinlong were there. Reached Expo and met up with Charis, then into Hall 8 we go. Prior to the commencement of the service, Rickson arrived at about 1630 or so. Briefed us about deliverance service, what to expect and stuff. I don't know about the others but I felt really pumped up, really excited, can't wait for it to start. So the normal service ended and there was a break. Needed to hit the gents and wow, for the first time ever in my life, I saw a queue for  the male toilet. Okay, so deliverance service started. First time I went up, I didn't really feel anything. But on my way back someone stopped me and told me to pray for his son, I thought it's weird how someone would stop me. Second time I went up, one of the ministry worker asked if I was there to pray for people, it's really weird and she said I had the sticker on my sleeve. Now I know why the guy stopped me previously. I was mistaken as a ministry worker as a real ministry worker's sticker was stuck onto my sleeve ha ha. Anyway, started to feel something come up my stomach but there was uh...it's quite difficult to explain but it isn't anything like wanting to vomit. But I want to comment that the ministry worker prayed something else for me also. After a while he covered my ears and the only two words I made out was hearing and ear. As he ended praying, I opened my eyes and had quite a shock, he was perspiring so much! Went back to the seats and that feeling just keeps coming. Not sure when but halfway through singing, I burped, it was just about the biggest burp I've left off. I just felt a lot of gas come up and I immediately felt better. Throughout the service I just kept burping and burping, even after reaching Bedok going home. Jinlong had the same experience as well. Hm....Oh forgot about this! You know, I don't even know whether I'm a christian or not, I get the yes-I-am-uh-am-I dilemma, but after today. I can proudly say "Yes, I am a child of God and I will follow Him."

27 July 2007
Went for cellgroup today. Met a few new people there. Ron, Tiffany, Peter and I forgot this guy's name, woops, but I do know it's something Ming. Anyway, there was praising and worshipping, only knew one song. Rest of the songs were quite difficult to follow, the tune changes quite unexpectedly. Not easy to learn, so...yeah...yawned a few times. Feel bad about it, heh, people are worshipping and praising and then I'm yawning. Later Rickson came and prayed for me. Prayed for the Holy Spirit to dwell in me and that I will grow with It. After hearing people pray in tongues for like 10 times, I thought it'll be easy to mimick, but as I tried to speak, something just kept holding me back. Was it fear? Was it uncertainty or do I simply not have the knowledge after all, I do not know. But Rickson was there to encourage me, he never went away even after I kept silent after his first prompting. On his second promting, I gave it a shot and even though I don't know what I was saying, I believe what I spoke was truly the language of heaven. But that wasn't the climax. I'm not sure whether it's before or after Rickson's prayer with me and I forgot what we were doing. But something really unexpected happened. All I remember was I had my eyes closed and then my tears just flowed. That's the magic of God, even though I was tearing, there was no sadness at all. And as I was typing this, I just had to pray and thank the Lord. Time to go home, it as suggested that I follow Kelvin to take bus service 854. So we all separated ways leaving Kelvin, Gillian, my cellgroup leader, and me. Walked for a bit and came to the crossroad. Kelvin showed me which bus stop to go to, it was in plain sight but 854 arrived and I can't cross over yet. So I asked him to make sure it was the right bus stop so he pointed to the bus stop again and said. "Neh, 八五四来了，哦，刚刚走了.” Translation: "Look, 854 is here, oh, it just left." The way he said it is so....I don't know how to say it. Asked him if there's a bus stop ahead, and he said there is. So I made a run for it. Thank God the lights turned red and bought me a lot of time. The bus stop was like 150 metres away and I reached it slightly ahead of the bus. Woo, lucky. Thank you Kelvin, for guiding me to the bus stop. That's all for this entry. I don't really know the exact terms to use, new to writing entries, new in christianity, so please do leave comments so I may learn and write better and better.